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Terkadang, menulis sudah tidak dapat membendung lagi emosi-emosi ini...

Ada beberapa hal yang rasanya ingin kutuliskan, tapi kusampaikan langsung. Dengan harap bahwa mungkin ini bisa lebih baik dari kata-kata di mulutku untuk mewakili apa yang ada di dalam sini... Ya, disini...

Kadang hati itu mendadak seakan menjadi sebuah ruang kosong dengan luas yang tak terbayangkan.. Dan kertas, pena, keyboard, atau lembaran kosong apapun tidak mampu lagi untuk menggambarkan seperti apa ruangan itu? Saat aku merasa kekosongan itu nampak lebih besar dari diriku sendiri...

Keadaan apa yang sebenarnya memicu diriku untuk berfluktuasi seperti ini? Berfluktuasi begitu hebatnya hingga bisa melangkahi logikaku, mematikan perasaanku, dan membelokkan kata-kata hatiku?

Apa yang sebenarnya terjadi?

Apa yang berubah?

Mengapa aku tak lagi mampu menulis betapa bahagianya diriku akan sesuatu? dan tak mampu lagi aku menulis betapa aku membenci sesuatu?

Mengapa tulisanku saat ini tak lebih dari sekedar kata-kata tak berarti, atau caci maki yang tiada berujung?

Dan yang terpenting? Mengapa kata-kata yang keluar dari mulutkupun tak mampu lagi untuk menggambarkan apa yang aku maksud?

Lalu dengan cara apa lagi aku harus berekspresi? Bila aku berekspresi tanpa kata, huruf, dan kalimat. Siapa yang mampu mengerti isi diriku yang terdalam?

Dengan ini kukatakan kepada dunia, bahwa ini adalah akhir dari lembar elektronik ini... Setelah hari ini, detik ini, tidak akan ada lagi huruf-huruf yang keluar dari jariku pada lembar ini.

Sampai kapan? Sampai aku benar-benar merasa telah memegang kendali atas diri ini. Atas pikiran ini, dan atas emosi emosi ini... Dan saat aku telah merasa yakin kembali, bahwa aku masih bisa mengubah dunia dengan tanganku, dengan perbuatanku, dengan kata-kataku yang lebih nyata, walau dengan cara yang kecil.... Termasuk duniamu...

Saat aku benar-benar kembali ke dalam kemampuanku untuk mengenali dunia, dan memberikan gambaran yang lebih akurat tentang apa yang aku rasakan...

Dan apa yang akan kubagi kepada dunia, akan kucoba sebaik yang aku mampu, agar senantiasa menjadi manfaat...

I'm still trying to change the world... Even in a small way...

Choices..

It doesn't take a genius to explain life to me.

I know life has it's ups and downs, and good and bad.

But one thing that I proudly hold, is a belief that we make our own choices...

Is it wrong? Is it forbidden? When you want to hold on, or believing in the good things that might happened?

I chose to write the good things in stones...

And leave a few lines in the sand when it comes to the bad things...

And I will never lose my own faith... I do believe in every good things that might happen... Bad things are not there to stop me. That's because I don't give a damn thing about it...

I'm a man of choice... And the choices that I make, is just my standing position...

Quotes...

All day, Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall

All night, Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me, Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know, I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

Don't Go away

A Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say

About the things caught in my mind

As the day was dawning my plane flew away

With all the things caught in my mind

And I wanna be there when you're...

Coming down

And I wanna be there when you hit the ground

So don't go away...

Say what you say

But say that you'll stay

Forever and a day...in the time of my life

Cos I need more time yes I need more time

Just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play

With all the things caught in my mind

Damn my education I can't find the words to say

About all the things caught in my mind

And I wanna be there when you're...

Coming down

And I wanna be there when you hit the ground

So don't go away...

Say what you say

But say that you'll stay

Forever and a day...in the time of my life

Cos I need more time yes I need more time

Just to make things right

Me and you what's going on?

All we seem to know is how to show

The feelings that are wrong...

So don't go away...

Say what you say

But say that you'll stay

Forever and a day...in the time of my life

Cos I need more time yes I need more time

Just to make things right

So don't go away...

Say what you say

But say that you'll stay

Forever and a day...in the time of my life

Cos I need more time yes I need more time

Just to make things right

Yes I need more time,

Just to make it right...

~I'm crying out loud just by listening to this song... I never cried like this ever in my whole life...

~I'm sorry, I'm really,, really sorry..

Dia...

Terlepas dari pandangan dunia tentangnya... Namun dialah duniaku... :')

Dan diapun akan kubela, sampai nanti aku tak lagi manusia...

Sebuah quote, untuk para budak sistem Indonesia...

I don’t care what your job, or what your title says. What I really want to know is what your life is dedicated to...

Satu hal lagi tentang watak pribumi kami...

Gw beberkan fakta...

Karena begitulah adanya...

Orang menyanggah, mendebat, dan menolak sejuta pernyataan...

Pembelaan diri dilempar membabi buta...

Solusi baru akan dilontarkan, ditepis dan disanggah dengan sejuta alasan...

TIDAK ADAKAH SATUPUN ORANG DI NEGARA INI? YANG BERANI UNTUK SETIDAKNYA: MEMBUKA PIKIRANNYA, MENJADI BIJAK DAN PALING TIDAK MENYADARI OMONGAN SESEORANG INI ADA BENARNYA???

Ngomongin Indonesia...

Infrastruktur di Indonesia tu brengsek emang... Cuma bisa jadi sumber pertengkaran dalam rumah tangga aja... Nggak transportasi, komunikasi, ato tata kota... Dasar negara KANDANG BABI!!

Quote of the day...

Life is never different from a simple mathematical equation...

When variables change, we modify the equation to obtain the same solution we desire...

Reality changes, Fact changes too... Isn't it time to make new plans to obtain the same results?